The odd thing about a trauma, I have recently come to learn, is it's strange effects on one's body; palpitations and funny turns. Simple ordinary questions such as troublesome 'How are you?' are hard to honestly answer without sounding like a loon. My default, short, polite response doesn't really cut the mustard. No mention of the sudden shakes that leave me confused and flustered. I never non-nonchalantly describe, whilst I guffaw and crack a joke, how my legs, they feel like jelly and I think my mind's been broke. There's often pounding in my chest and I feel a little queasy. Having a normal, friendly chat is no longer easy-peasy. I spend my relaxation time laying staring at the ceiling, trying desperately to rid myself of this crazy feeling. These horrid, frightening attacks were caused by a tremendous shock. But the pills I have to pop each day do help an awful lot. I'm starting to feel much better as the days and weeks go by. I can even wash the dishes without a pause to have a cry. I can have a conversation that's coherent and makes sense. I no longer stare off into space when I go out with my friends. There are even several positives to being in this state, despite my healthy apetite, I've lost a lot of weight. Clothes that I'd 'grown out of' now re-fit me like glove. My oldest ripped and faded jeans are worn with proud, rekindled love. My feet are most surprising though as my shoes are now like boats. It turns out that my feet have shrunk, my clown-like shoes are jokes! My cheekbones are like razor blades. Paris fashion week best watch out. Ol' skinny feet might turn up next year modelling a perfect pout. Experiencing this major blip has given me brand new skills. Meditation really helps, it's not just those little pills. I know about a lot more things like herbs and nutrients, calming homemade vitamin shakes, fruit smoothies and supplements! In fact, I might retire to Spain to start a health retreat. I'll retrain as a yogi chief with uber skinny feet. I'll put this trauma to good use, my rebirth now awaits. So when someone asks me how I am, I can truly say,'I'm great!'